Happiness and Wanting More

I need a better quality day job.

It’s interesting how much more I’m aware of that when things begin to go my way. Sometimes, I think I could go through life without worrying too much about whether I like my job, or if I’m making enough money. I could force myself to be happy with a pay check, and enough time left over to keep working on my novel, or my website.

And then, something good happens. Something that makes me realize that my dream is still out there. And then, I’m awake and aware, and the thought of storming out in frustration and disgust seems so much more real.

Right now, I’m making progress. I’m gaining traction on the blog, I have a real, live article that I’m writing. I’m still revising my (latest) novel, but I’m happier  with it and more confident than I have been in a while.

And that’s usually about where thoughts of chucking my day job and taking up some outlandish scheme set in.

I could be a street performer in New York or Chicago.

I could sell marginally raunchy games for child-free life events on Etsy.

I could be a hobo and ride the rails, and blog about it for fun and profit. I could sell little animals carved out of stolen lumps of coal.

I could be a YouTube star, and make videos for children… but for adults.

I could wash store front windows for cash in my bare feet, and go just about anywhere, as long as they’d let me have a bucket and squeegee.

I could start a band. People really do that, you know.

Or a non-profit.

Or a commune.

Am I the only one? Do other people find one bit of happiness making them want to change other things, too? Do your stop-gap choices seem all the less bearable, when you feel yourself getting closer to the things you really want?

5 thoughts on “Happiness and Wanting More

  1. It’s a real struggle to chivvy myself along to the office these days. I know just how you feel. Many times a day I flip-flop between ‘I must stick it out for a while yet’ and ‘I’m going to give notice _today_ and try survival gardening’.

  2. Canis Lupus says:

    Isn’t it amazing how many people work in offices- and how many wish they didn’t? I’m there again myself, as of today, but I’m not planning for it to last long- it’s not for me. I don’t know how people survive in that environment, year in and year out, for 40 hours a week. I’ve my Horticulture certificate, and once I’ve a driver’s license (which, really, I should’ve done ages ago, and knew it, and still didn’t, so my own fault), I’ll try my hand at self-employment. Survival gardening for the win! Or, at least, offering gardening maintenance services- from what I hear there’s a demand. So what I guess I’m saying is… Go for it. Work for it, plan for it, make whatever dream you have a reality- I’ll sure try! 😉

    • Karen says:

      I keep hearing about container farms, too. Probably more of a buy-in cost, right now, but the concept is interesting. You grow plants that produce quickly in a modified intermodal shipping container, and sell them in local markets. Of course, you’d need a place to put a container, but after that, they’re stack-able.

      • Canis Lupus says:

        Oh, I hadn’t heard of those! But, yeah, there’s loads of interesting options- rooftops, old industrial buildings, I hear there’s people farming in old subway tunnels under London or something… With the advent of LED grow lights, there’s new options. And while your buy-in will be higher, you’ll also be closer to a large consumer base and can charge extra for it being fresh and local. I’m thinking of driving into those business parks and selling fresh veg out of a van… Might be a good business model, maybe?

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